I am feeling a bit blah today. I can’t exactly pin point why because I think it’s an accumulation of little and big things. In a few months I will be turning 30, my baby will be turning 1, the finances are getting tighter and are praying and seeking Gods provision, my spiritual walk is shaky right now…maybe it’s hormones. Ha-ha, what a copout. I especially cannot stand the weather right now. It’s October and it was 96 degrees at my house yesterday. I have a feeling we won’t see much of fall this year and we’ll jump right into winter. Sucky! Oh, I want to cry. I know all these things are totally circumstantial and I need to let it all go. Only Christ can fully sustain me…just shows my disbelief I suppose and especially my need for Christ. I just want to yell sometimes “Why God! Why do we have to go through these trials? Why do you have to strip us of everything?” of course I know why…because Jesus needs to be our all and material objects will not suffice…because trials help us to grow in our faith and give us perseverance. Lord, help that to be real in my heart and not just words. I confess, my BIG idol is comfort. When I feel comfortable, I feel loved and taken care of. My struggle is feeling content in all circumstances. When we have “0″ in the bank or when we have plenty. I also struggle because I lack joy in all circumstances. I tend to be an optimistic person , but when my world is shaken, I find that I quickly get depressed. Not like I need medication depressed, just overwhelmed with my feelings. During these small relapses, I still preach the gospel to myself and remind myself of Christ’s everlasting love for me, but a piece is still missing because I am lacking the joy that those people get when they lose everything and they still have this glow about them, true joy and peace. I’m a work in progress…that’s what I like to say. Slowly I believe these issues will be worked out…it may take longer than I’d like, but it’s still progress.

On Saturday, we decided to go to Mt. Helix to see the cross. I was looking forward to sharing this experience with my men since they have never been. It really is a beautiful place. You have a 360 degree view of San Diego and it’s breathtaking. Some people go regularly and hang out and talk, read, relax and take pictures. I personally love it there and think it’s one of San Diego’s most unique and over looked spots.

The funny part of our trip was when we started walking to our car to leave. It ends up that there was some kind of Vespa gathering on the same day. If you’ve ever been to Mt. Helix you know there is only a small parking lot at the top, so we were blocked in. Yes, there were that many Vespa’s. Plus, a car decided to park behind us making it impossible to leave. We got a good laugh out of it and took some pictures (of course).

Kaleo Church
Mission Bay Point, California
October 5, 2008
Patrick Bird and Luke Bauer were baptized

My aunt turned the BIG 5-0 last week and we celebrated her youth by having a large family dinner at Gordon Biersch in Mission Valley. We don’t get to see that side of the family often, so my aunt was particularly happy to see Corbin. Corbin, of course, was hamming it up…he had the whole table ogling at him and making comments. I was just thankful that he wasn’t fussing because it was past his bedtime. We usually don’t take him out past 6pm because he goes to bed around 6:30/7pm, but we have to make exceptions from time to time. The evening ending in a paparazzi frenzy of group photos to commemorate the event.

The weather in San Diego finally started cooling down a bit which made being at Sea World a much more pleasant experience. If you know me at all, you know fall is my favorite time of year. 75 degrees or below is my desired temperature.

While we were at Sea World, we saw the manatee exhibit, the dolphin show, had a picnic lunch on the lawn and watched the dolphins. It was nice to walk around with no set agenda or fighting crowds.